i find myself missing the old blog. though mainly i really like how it looks when you have that long sexy list of months below archives. oh my soul. whatever will i do. confuse the onlookers with general mixedupppeddnessss. sort posts according to their affective valence. color scheme appropriateness. admit that truly originally i was right all along. stay real. cool. true to your pseudocomputer orange and gray roots. toot toot. two blogs. one person times two sets of excessive introspection...equals...glorious unfilled time. narcissism. solipsism. circular thinking. something something. appeal to a wider audience. dualism. drip drip drip. poisonous thoughts. the underbelly. a literalized metaphor for indecision. bad computer posture.

as i walked home from a drop in meditation class, the phrase echoed through my head: I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED! referring to the rain perhaps. or the world at large. or my very own mumble bumble head. thus it spoke. she did.

nothing nothing nothing.

not one bit!